My Christian Life

Hello Blog,

Be warned . This will be a long post. I have been trying to sort out my life. As you may have previously read my other posts, I have been employed by a large corporate company. It has been a month since I started my new job. My life has been good so far and I feel closer to the Lord than ever before.

I have a few problems in life at the moment. I still haven’t told my family that I have turned to Christ and have been saved since last year. I can’t go to any local churches and on Sundays I feel hungry for spritual renewal. I am back down south , with no church and no christian support. Life is quite ‘lonely’.

The other part of my life which I am feeling down is friends and local support. Most of my friends , whom I knew from college and high school have left this town. Without a driving licence , it is difficult to socialize and it haunts me. Back in Coventry , I had a good support and my fiancee was giving me plenty of support. Guess I have to deal with it and P.U.S.H. (Pray Until Something Happens).

In terms of socializing at work , it has been a challenge and quite hard. My office is dominated by guys and they never seem to invite me to pub lunch or any other social events. I feel awkard to invite myself and am not sure what to do.

My relationship with the lord has been awesome. I read the bible every day . Might have mentioned my purple bible. It is my travel companion and feel as if the Lord is comforting me on my journey every moment.

For example I was spiritually attacked by a non-believer. I was caught off guard and it was quite upsetting. Person A is very religious (non-christian) and I respect her for her beliefs. She asked me about my faith and what I believed in.. I told her that I believe in Christ and etc. To my surprise , she started attacking the main core of Christianity stating that:-

• The Lord would not have a human son and allow Him to die at the Cross.
• Christianity was invented by Alexander the great
• Why does Christianity believe in 1 god but the father,son and the holy spirit does not make any sense

I feel totally annoyed by this girl. She should have at least have the decency to respect my beliefs , as much as I respect her beliefs. At least the Bible comforted me again :-

For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes—the Jew first and also the Gentile.This Good News tells us how God makes us right in his sight. This is accomplished from start to finish by faith. As the Scriptures say, “It is through faith that a righteous person has life.” Romans 1:16 - 17(NLT)

I realized that my faith in Christ will always be tested and that I need to continually renew my biblical knowledge.

August 17th, 2008 | Category: Coventry, Employment, spiritual attack | Comments (2)

Hi blog ,

I have been busy busy , yet again. Trying to send my CVs to prospective employers and agencies. The good thing is that I have been offered a job and start next Wednesday. I am so excited and praise the Lord for giving me such a wonderful opportunity. I pray that the application process will go smoothly with no problems, that I am able to learn new skills , adapt to new surroundings and meet some new exciting people.

Our wedding preparation is going smoothly ( i think). We have to sort out the wedding reception . Unfortunately our first choice for our wedding reception is fully booked. We have a few options to consider , i.e moving the wedding date or choose a different venue. I can’t understand why a ‘bridezilla’ has provisionally booked 2 dates for her wedding reception. It means that I can’t confirm my booking and can’t write a letter to the church regarding our plans to change the wedding date. So inconsiderate!.

Last week I was upset because I was uncertain about my future. I was desperate for a job because I was worried about my financial and wedding situation. I feel more better and more focused!.

Praise the Lord!!!

July 20th, 2008 | Category: Employment, wedding | Leave a comment

It has been a long long time since I updated my blog. I have been a bit busy in life. We came back from our Far East Holiday , spent 3 weeks travelling. I have uploaded the pictures on Flickr , please check it out. Our holiday was brilliant , apart from a couple of family problem. We stayed with my relatives , who ‘nearly wrecked’ my precious holiday (infact i think they ruined our holiday). It was havoc living in the house and the arguments and tensions were unbearable. We tried to be considerate as possible , by making sure we don’t disrupt their daily plans. Maybe it was in their agenda to ruin our holiday and they suceeded. I tried to avoid any confrontation or arguments , however was shocked when they confronted us over silly things.

The first confrontation was over a dog. I am quite scared of their ‘pet’. The dog is quite aggressive and growls at me constantly (infact once the dog nearly attacked me). I love dogs but am petrified of pets that bites its owners. Rather than handing the matter in an apppropriate manner, my relative decide to scream at me and treat me like a 7 year old kid. I think I lost my dignity when I was on holiday.

My fiance and I decide to ‘patch up’ and reconcile. I spoke to my dad and he gave me some advice that I should use my christian values. The matter was resolved and my relatives took appropriate action to keep an eye of the dog , when we are in the living room. As usual they were not happy with the new regime and heard constant moaning and criticizing us.

The matter was not resolved. A day before we left for the UK, another argument broke out. This time the same individual falsely accused me of giving a dirty look to my grandma. I was shocked by his argumentative behaviour.

I am not used to be in an atmosphere where people argue, accuse and scream at each other. It was unbearable and he started insulting my mum for no apparent reason. He stated that my mum has not done a good job in my upbringing and I have inherited the bad habits of my dad and his culture. My grandma also joined in and stated that my fiance should slap me and that my fiance is a ’sissy’.

Dear Blog readers. I was very very angry , provoked and snapped back. I feel totally disgusted at my behaviour but there is a level of insult you can absorb and not retaliate. I know Christ will not be happy with my behaviour , that I was angry and snapped back.

Again my fiance and I apologized if we caused any trouble or etc. We patched up and returned home safely to England. Oops according to my relatives , the matter is not yet resolved. Now they have spread rumours about us to other relatives in the UK.

Don’t understand why people want to create havoc and misery. Really hope and pray that they will seek Christ and change their behaviour.

July 13th, 2008 | Category: Sin, Stress, family issues, holiday | Leave a comment

Hello blog ,

It has been ages since I paid a visit to my own blog. I am in Malaysia , spending a couple of days in the capital city. The weather is pretty humid and hot with plenty of sunshine. We paid a visit to the St Mary Cathedral in Kuala Lumpur at Dataran Merdeka. Unfortunately we did not have the time to attend any services.

I have good news. I have achieved a 2:1 in my BSc (Hons) degree . Praise the Lord!!.

I have to go right now before the mosquitoes do further damage to my skin

take care

June 28th, 2008 | Category: Anglican, University, holiday | Comments (2)

Hello there!. We had a weekend away at lovely North Wales. We camped at Llanberis , a beautiful village , near Anglesey and Snowdonia. We focused on Romans 12 , regarding motivational gifts (see Romans 12:6 - 8). To be honest , I was not paying much attention (because I was in agony) and have decided to spend some quality time studying this passage.

In verse 1 , Paul urges our bodies to be living sacrifices. In the Old Testament , it is written that the sacrifices given to the lord , must be free from any defects , specific and must be performed according to the law. As previously stated , Jesus Christ was our sacrifice , substitute for our sins. The other word that Paul mentions includes “holy”. Answers.com has 7 different types of definition for the word “holy”.

“holy :- divine , sacred , strict spiritual system and etc…”

I believe holy is pure , like the sacrifices given to the Lord in the Old Testament. We all agreed regarding this definition above. The passage continues and it states that if we become living sacrifices AND holy - then this is also a good way to worship the Lord. I found it extremely challenging to be holy. I don’t consider myself as ‘pure’ , but I would like to work towards becoming pure.

For example , I see people from my cell group who engage in various types of voluntary work that pleases the Lord. Some of my fellow cell group members help to serve free Hot Chocolate to the public and some are helping to serve soup for the needy. I really need to get out there and serve the community.

Update on my-job-hunting

Ongoing applications :- 7 , Rejected Applications :- 4 , Pending Applications :- 1

So far I have not received any letters for interviews. Recently I applied for a job , about 5 miles from my home. The job is related to environmental and planning  I am planning to apply for 7 jobs by this week and am praying that I would get a job. My stepmum told me to be patient and the Lord has plans for me!.

May 27th, 2008 | Category: Romans, Spiritual Gifts | Leave a comment

hello ,

i have bad news . My files automatically vanished and praise the lord , I had previously backed up some of database. It will take a few days for everything to return to normal. I’m feeling a bit dissapointed with my host and i dont think they backed up my files. My images have been deleted and vanished into thin air. I will try my  best to find the images.

cheers

May 22nd, 2008 | Category: Uncategorized | Leave a comment

‘rejected’ applications :- 4
Shortlisting for interviews :- 0

I’m so fed up with life at the minute . Nothing is going according to my plan and keep getting rejected for interviews. I don’t seem to understand what the ‘prospective employers’ want from me. I think if I didn’t gto to university , I would have more chances of getting a job. Will they give me a job if I didn’t go to university , didn’t spend £20,000 for my university or have lack of skills?

I applied for two jobs , both want a qualification up to GCSEs or A level (which I have got). I dont understand why I got ‘rejected’ for those low paid jobs. Besides the salary was not too appealing (one of the jobs start at £14K , most graduates start at £18K - £20K) and i was prepared to accept the job offer.

I believe I have all the skills required for that particular job , perhaps a bit unqualified and yet they turned me down and didn’t bother to even give me a chance for interview. Life is so not fair!!!. I wouldn’t be suprised if they were recruiting ‘their own favourites’ for that particular job.

I spent 3 years at university , all the time and effort for nothing? . What do you want me to achieve? Do you expect me to climb mount everest and i wouldnt be suprised if I was turned down.

Im sick and tired of getting rejected. If this persists , I would leave this country and get better job prospects elsewhere. I’m running out of options and I may have to delay getting married next year.

May 15th, 2008 | Category: Employment, Stress | Comments (1)

Yesterday I had 2 exams. I was extremely stressed , upset and felt as if God was not on my side. Today I felt  much better that yesterday , feel guilty about doubting the Lord and not trusting in him. I have to keep reminding myself that “it is not about me , other people are in worse situations than me .. its only an exam”.

I had one exam in the morning , from 9:30 am to 12:00 noon and another exam in the afternoon from 2pm to 5pm. The morning exam was a disaster and I just pray to the lord that I would be prepared to do a retake in the summer. At the end of the exam , my mind was blank , confused , frustrated and upset. I had 2 hours to quickly prepare for another exam in the afternoon.

“Offer right sacrifices and trust in the Lord”

Psalm 4:5 (NIV)

My Fiance was right. When you are so stressed , nothing will work and you have to put your trust in the Lord. Infact he mentioned about my exam stress in his latest post. At 12 noon , nothing was going according to my plan. The afternoon exam was another open book exam (but in a different style) . I had alreadly prepared well for the afternoon. Unfortunately my work was saved in my laptop desktop area and not in my pen drive. How frustrating and time was running out. I came up with another solution , to print off relevant journals and quickly read the points. Again things did not work out , the printer in the open access room stopped working .. grrrr!!!!

I was not thinking straight and I had all these panic attacks. Felt like I had a premonition of my future. I thank the lord that my fiance was with me and supported me throughout my lunch period. We quickly went down to Pizza hut for the buffet lunch. It was good , mmm yummy vege pizza and good for my brain and mind :). Later I went back to the open access room and read the relevant articles.

The afternoon exam was brilliant and I really enjoyed answering the question. I think food and relaxation is always the solution for our everyday life. I have to learn to relax and not to stress. Have to also stop procastinating about my future or even dream about the wonderful things which may happen in the future.

At the moment I received some news about my grandma who lives in the parish of Clarendon , Jamaica. She suffered a stroke and other complications this week. My dad and my other family members will be going to Jamaica. Grandma Mola is 93 years old and I will be praying for her.

My fiance also told me  today that someone I know passed away. My thoughts are with their families.

May 14th, 2008 | Tags: exam, illness, Stress, University | Category: Emotions, Psalm, Stress, University | Leave a comment

May 10th, 2008 | Category: podcast | Leave a comment